Not What I Expected

Day 3, Wednesday, July 8, 2015

I’m starting to feel like I am stalled out ,,,, day 3 of being off work, and I don’t feel like I have accomplished a single thing. I know the objective of this time is not to accomplish physical tasks, but rather to rest and exercise, with the goal of achieving the same value as I might have received from an increase in medication. Regardless, I guess I expected more.

First of all, I don’t feel better yet. I exercised yesterday and I’m going again tomorrow, but I feel as crummy as I did when I was working ...I can see I might be expecting too much after such a short time. But shouldn’t just resting from work make me feel at least a little better?

Secondly, I thought I would get “stuff” done, but I don’t seem to be doing that. I cook a lot and clean up the kitchen a lot (which truly does require “a lot” of work!), do the occasional load of laundry, get up with Mike at 5:00 AM and get his breakfast and lunch ready, exercise, and take a nap when I’m tired. Then I’m done. Again, I expected more from myself, and I’m sure Mike must have expected more too, though he never acts like it. (Sidebar:  This is not a journal on the most precious man in the world, but I should say right here and now that I have him firmly tied up in marriage vows to me alone! Thank you, Lord!)

Anyway, to continue on the subject of my reality versus my expectation, I just thought I’d get more done, and feel better while doing it….what do i make of the fact that it isn’t working that way? Does that mean I’m worse off than I thought? Does it mean that I might as well keep working like a maniac since I feel the same, and I don’t get anything done at home either way? Or does it mean that I just haven’t given it long enough for a fair evaluation? I dunno.

Anyway… today I spent most of my productive hours going to Shelbyville to visit Livvy in her new house. She painted brown rooms yellow, I chatted and hopefully problem-solved about a couple of storage issues, we went to lunch at Wendy’s, and I brought her a pot of flowers for her porch. I also stopped at the animal shelter to visit a dog that Livvy was thinking of adopting, but, as it turns out, I stopped at the wrong place. In doing so, however, I met a bunch of adorable cats (especially a tabby named Madonna), and found out that the right place was closed on Wednesdays anyway. Who knew the Johnson County Animal Shelter and the Johnson County Humane Society were not the same place?

I wanted to stop at the grocery and/or get my nails done on the way home, but I was so sleepy I had to come home for a nap instead. I guess there’s always tomorrow.

I had a craving for watermelon around 9:00 PM, so I just finished cutting up a whole melon.  It only took me about 20 minutes.

The best part of my day? After being gluten-free for 8+ years, and missing donuts terribly, I finally found a good homemade donut “recipe,” and ate them like there was no tomorrow!  I used the biscuit recipe I got from Jerry Sparks’ wife (1 Tbsp sugar, 1 C flour, 1 C sour cream, 1 ½ tsp baking powder), rolled the dough into 8 small croquettes, fried them in oil, shook them in a paper bag of sugar, and enjoyed the heck out of them...all in one sitting! First good donuts I’ve had in 8 years!

In other random notes, this Chromebook is making me crazy. It doesn’t auto-correct spelling, it doesn’t capitalize the first word of each sentence for you, it doesn’t have a delete key or a home key or end key, and it doesn’t work easily with Word. But it does give you immediate internet access, it does work for 4 days without being plugged into a power source, and it does save your work automatically. Except once in a while when it says, “Oops, that wasn’t supposed to happen!”  Go figure….