Will I Be Healed?

That question has been wandering around in my head for a while now, so I thought I better let it out!

Will I be healed?

Can we just be real with each other for a minute, and admit that's a little tricky?

Will I be healed? Well.. I grew up "safe." We said safe things like,"If it's God's will, you'll be healed." If we weren't healed, we said God had a purpose for our sickness; it was part of His plan. We trusted God for our salvation, but it stopped there. We ignored troublesome passages like the verses in the prison epistles that talk about our faith making us whole.We were afraid to say we could be healed if we had enough faith, because what if we said that, then we weren't healed? Wouldn't that be embarrassing? Wouldn't that tell everyone we didn't have enough faith? And so we  protected ourselves by asking God to heal Susie Jones or deliver Andy Smith "if it's Your will."

Will I be healed? Well...Joshua at the Life Wellness Center says unequivocally, "Yes." He cites all the people Jesus healed in the New Testament. He cites the woman with the issue of blood who was healed when she came up behind the Lord in the crowd and touched the edge of His robe. He says anyone with enough faith will be healed. When asked about the Apostle Paul, who asked the Lord to remove his physical infirmity three times, but was denied, Joshua's answer is "That was for Paul, not for you." Joshua says God sees us as already whole and healed. And Joshua lives out what he preaches:  he has his own physical infirmity, and is at perfect peace waiting for the healing he knows is coming. And you know what? I believe him. I believe God is going to heal him.

But am I going to be healed?

Let's change the question by one word:  Could I be healed? Of course I could. God is the same yesterday, today, and forever; and didn't He heal people before? He is unchanging and faithful; won't He keep all the promises that say things like the faith of the righteous will heal them? He keeps His promises. He still does miracles in the midst of the mundane. Could I be healed? Absolutely, I could.

So, back to the harder question.

Will I be healed? I don't know. I don't know which doctrinal stance is right because there's evidence to support both of them. I don't know if they can co-exist together. If faith is my part of the healing, then do I have enough faith to be healed? Apparently not, since I still have Parkinson's symptoms. (I don't feel very full of faith most of the time anyway, so that's no surprise!)  So if God doesn't heal me, maybe it is because I don't have enough faith. Or maybe it's just because He is more greatly glorified in my sickness than in my health.

So, while I'm trying to figure this out, I'll just keep praying for God to increase my faith because I know that pleases Him. And I'll keep praying that He will be glorified through whatever path I walk today.                                      

Okay, I can sleep now that I let all of that out of my head and onto my blog.

Good night.