I am Dry

Utterly spent...drained...done.

I feel like my week has been an epic fail on every level:  professionally, personally, spiritually, nutritionally.

Any forward progress on my symptoms came to an abrupt halt. I begged off of my appointment at the Life Wellness Center, and I'm seriously thinking about passing on church Sunday morning. I just want to jump in a hole and pull it in after me. I can't take it, I can't stand it.

Only I have to.

So since I have to, how do I do it? How do I refresh, rejuvenate, and revive? And preferably before Monday.

I dunno. I'm having trouble caring. So, I'm just going to think through it out loud, right here in my blog with a few of my favorite friends.

Let's start with the answer to this question:  What do I know for sure?

I know home is a safe place. I know that God's Word holds direction for every problem in life. I know that eating habits, exercise, and medication play a large role in how I feel. I know that I'm in dire need. I know that my long hours at work and my health issues are straining my husband to the max. I know I can't fix it all at once.

Next question:  What are my greatest needs at this moment?

I need mental rest. I need to get caught up at work. I need my house to be welcoming and clean. I need an eating and health plan going into next week. I need to get back into the habit of daily devotions.

I recognize that I cannot fix it all, so I want to make a plan that will at least touch on each area and make it one step more tolerable. So, point by point, how do I accomplish at least a little bit in each area?

Mental rest:  I will go to work in the morning and accomplish the bare minimum, then plan for Monday. Then, no more thinking about work. Period.

Catching up at work:  part of the plan above. Go to work Saturday for a couple of hours, and don't leave without a list for Monday. Then next week try to get into work an hour earlier each day (like around 8 AM instead of 9 AM).

House to be clean:  See if I can get my husband's help with this problem.

Eating and health plan:  1) I need to establish a morning routine and write it down.  2)  I need to utilize the tools I got at the Life Wellness Center last week 3) I need to at least decide on an exercise to try by end of week  4) I will get my medications ready in a pillbox to make my mornings easier  5)  I need to continue reading the "thankful" journal book I was reading before and add a chapter from Scripture each day.

Having a plan is so helpful. I wrote this post last night and reviewed it today before I posted it, and I think it's a plan I can live with.

So, I'm off to put some feet to my plans.